Suicide isnt the answer. You know It isnt and you hurt yourself just enough to send you to the hospital. You know you will be hounded by sorrows and this is what fuels your talkative moods most of the time. Then when you get mad at somebody, you can threaten to do it again and you have the past event to prove it. But the one time you will mess up and actually kill yourself. People will mourn over you for a good year or two. Then they’ll forget about you. Going on with their normal daily lives.