What the f*** am I doing here?
I don't know what I'm doing anymore.
I feel like my life has no purpose.
I just feel extremely sad. Its not a constant feeling but its present enough to be a little concerning.
I can't imagine a future for myself. I'm in college as a junior with a degree that I'm starting to get nervous about. I'm majoring in film. I worry that I'm not going to get a job. Hell its hard to find a darn internship. Back in high-school I felt more active and motivated but now it feels like if I put in effort it feels like a waste. Like what is this actually doing for me. Theres a lot of reasons why i feel the way I do. I don't have a lot of friends.thats my bad I'm not social. Family's a mess rignt now. Hell I can't even work at my part time job cause Corona made them close temporarily.
There are things I wanna do but I can't or won't or I shouldn't or I couldn't. To be honest I don't know what I want anymore.
I think I'm trapped and I'm just now realizing it and its terrifies me.
What the f*** can i do?
I'm actually really scared.