Tomorrow will be my 7th wedding anniversary. 7 years of mostly hell. Right now, me and my 3 year old son sleeping in guest bedroom upstairs. I have chronic anxiety and panic disorder. I have anxieties mostly at night but controllable. I am on meds but now I'm left with 2 pills of Xanax..i basically stop talking to him for days. He slept all day and ignore his son completely. I was watching TV then he suddenly appeared sitting on the sofa. And just like that I had a huge panic attack. He doesn't respond of course. Took my Xanax and now I'm here..I guess I don't what I'm actually feeling. Just yesterday I look up online 'chat with strangers' hoping to find a friend that I can talk to. But it was s***..everyones horny on those sites and don't give a s*** about anything else. I guess I'm lonely.