I loved the holidays as a kid….everything about them the lights the music the whole spirit of Thanksgiving and xmas….now I want to f***ing puke every time I hear any xmas music and on top of that is wells up an anger deep inside that is utterly unexplainable how deeply hateful it is…I see the lights and all I feel is disgust at the excessive display of holiday cheer and enjoyment…yet when I think about it it saddens me that I hate this thing that's supposed to bring people together….now dont mistake this for hating gatherings cuz I love being with family and friends on both…its the rest if it I deeply loathe and I dont know why….maybe it's what its become with all the corporate greed surrounding it I dont know….but f*** I cant wait for it to be over