I want to die. I am just so f***ing tired. Tired of being ill tired of handling everything on my own. I just want to stop. And i keep being told fake it till u make it. And i just dnt want to fake it no more. Im tired of not being enough. Of not being able to work to provide for my kids. I suck as a mother. I hate my illnesses. Im tired of the pain physically and emotionally and spiritually. I just want it to end. But it doesn't matter how many times ive tried to kill myself God wont let me die. Im a fat ugly loser that will always be less then. Im tired of being alone. I just want to be held and told everything will be alright