why is life so confusing time and time again i'm seeing myself thinking of everything no matter if it's about me about someone else I always pressure myself to be the person that someone can always come to and talk but where is my person I can go to and talk to adults don't help all they care about is how I should be growing up and finding a way to take care of them in the future they have no idea how to help their own child with their emotions and have no sense of how anything they do effect me I don't know what to do the only time im even remotely happy is at school and I still can't even go throw school without dealing with something i'm always reminded that i'm not the only one with these feeling and that I should understand others and try and not talk about myself so much and it gets harder when you think that everything is going well then you find out that things that you didn't even know were happening are happening and it breaks you and cuts you so deep that you have to act mature and say that your fine but your not really fine and you can't kill yourself because your friends will hurt and your family would think what would have driven me to do it and also be in pain even though with or without me everything would be the same time and time I tell myself that if I ignore it….that it would go away but no it doesn't it stays and it lingers behind your back out of your sight but always in your mind…and.. even if you do forget something in life will remind you of what happened you can't run from what hurts you…but in my head if you try and face them…you will get hurt even worse then you did before…how do you find an answer when you dont even know where to even start looking.