I had a crush on someone for so long, 6 months. I knew he doesn’t have the same feelings as I do. I tried my best everyday to conquer these feelings , to forget about him. Why I’m obsessed with this guy. I already knew he like someone else and the person like him back. What am I doing here. Being a jerk. I wish I can cleanse my emotions toward him and have my own little life. My life is so miserable of having a crush on him. I’m blaming myself everyday that I shouldn’t have like him at the first place. I know he is not worth it. I’m exhausted . I hate myself.