Today I started my new job as a Funeral Arranger. I thought I would be okay? I am okay? But I’m not 100% okay. The smells in the rooms, especially where the deceased are kept has stuck into my nose and even laying in bed I can still smell death. I had some laughs with the people there. But seeing that man laying on the table with his skin falling off. This is why I’m not 100% okay. I’ve seen a dead person before. But a dressed dead person. A dead face I could handle. But not a dead body. I could see everything. I looked into his face and saw nothing. This man had lived a life that I knew nothing about. And right now. In that time. He was naked. We had never met. I knew my first day was going to be hard.
I’ll move forward. I will learn my job and I will do it well. So that the families are proud they chose me to take care of their loved one. I will see worse people. But today. It’s shocked me. But I will continue and I will make them proud.