okay,i dont know how to say this but do you ever just think to yourself; there is no way everybody thinks the way i do. like its just not normal, i have bad thoughts like really bad ones so im struggling with it (as i also have a really bad case if anxiety) but if somebody notices me being sad, what am i suppose to say?!? i cant say anything becauase i have nothing to be sad about but i just am and i dont know whats making me sad. thats why i do what everyone falls for, put on a fake smile and pretend everything is fine. when its clearly not. (or just cover it up with humor) i dont know why i wrote this. maybe thee is somebody out there who will understand.