I want to get these words off my chest, get them out into the open. But how? How do I confront my biggest fear, my deepest desires. I'm so used to helping others and not caring about how I'm feeling that sometimes it slips my mind that I have s*** of my own to deal with. Everyone is always asking me how I feel and I always reply with "I'm doing fine." When really I feel like dying inside, I want to express how I feel but I feel as I will get made fun of or people will see me a disturbed. I don't tell people how I feel just for this reason. I never want someone to look at me differently. Or see how twisted I really am inside. I want to show my true colors, but how do I face my fears to share? I just want to be heard…