Do you know how it's like when life is simply to fast and you are desperately trying to catch up?
I always feel like I'm way behind. One task follows the other. Responsibilities pile up more and more and I don't feel like I'm able to keep up.
People come to me and give me important tasks to finish. They believe that I'm capable to be succesful and to manage to finish everything satisfactorily. And yeah, I do. But then even before I'm able to finish it they give me the next task. I finish the first while I'm already on the second one.
And I doesn't end. One task after another. Til now I manage to do it, but I am terrified of the point when everything becomes to much.
I already gave up the voluntary position of a chairwoman in a club I'm part of my whole life at the beginning of this year in hope of reducing the pressure I'm under. But so many people at work or in my private life come to me because they want to give me more responsibilty.
I just feel like I am slowly sinking under water. And I don't want it. I'm honored that they think I can do it and that they trust me. Most of the time I can do it, but I am also scared that it will be too much at some point.
I try to take care of myself, by saying no when somebody wants to add anything more, but sometimes (if its regarding my job) I can't refuse.
Sometime everything seems to crash down on me. Sometimes my life is just to fast for me. And I try to slow it down a little. It just doesn't always work that way.
I just want to feel like I finished everything I needed, so I can take a deep breath. Just to be free of everything because the task is solved. To be content with having no tasks for a moment. Allowing myself to recharge to be able to start new things.
I do need to feel productive. And I like accomplish things. I don't think I would be happy when I stop helping others. When I would stop creating things, building a future and shape the present to be as good as it can be.
I just don't know what to do when I reach the point when everything becomes to much.
Can you relate?