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I’m so sad.

I'm almost 40 years old..Have a 3 year old son. Been married for almost 5 years. I'm indian – born and raised in this country. the man i married turned I married I thought was a great guy when we were dating. He was kind, considerate to me, my family, my friends…We got married and i found he is very selfish…puts me down that i don't make enough earnings. Is terrible with my family. So disrespectable. Won't even talk to them properly. He's expects me to do everything around the house but on his terms. I cna;t go visit my parents or family with my son, unless i have his permission to take him. It's very suffocating. All the rules are on his terms. I'm so so sad. I feel like i cna;t talk to him about any issues or problems or hurt feelings i have. He turns them around on me and makes me feel like I am the bad guy. Sometimes I feel he thinks I'm not a good mom. It's just a lot of hurt feelings. I wish I never married him. I wish I could somehow get out of this – but I would feel terrible about my son having a broken family. & i would be scared that my husband would fight for sole custody and I would not see my son. My son is my world. I wish I had married someone who had less hangups and was more considerate and understanding…like he was when we were dating. I wished I saw this side of him so I would have never taken this step and destroyed my happiness. I used to be sucha happy person. ALl i do is feel sad and cry most nights or days when no one is around…it's such a terrible space to be in. How can one person make you feel so miserable about yourself.

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