Do you ever get to a point in your life when you stop and think just what am i doing with my life i feel stuck in the middle of a relentless tornado that just wont put me down. I think to my self I am still only young but already so much seems wasted I have spent my years being sucked into a weed smoking lifestyle to cover up the things i cannot bear to deal with. I ask my self a thousand times a day why do i still curl into a ball with my trusty drug that
really truly i believe is controlling my life it’s ruining my everyday choices and my life ambitions while all at the same time i am trying to bring a family up as normal as possible and to hold my relationship together i know the weed is holding me back in all these areas of my life and still i cannot grasp just why i cant let the weed go i feel i could be such a different person without it i just cant let it go. i know i have so much potential to do so many things yet i have no job no qualifications of any kind i have a lovely partner and we have kids between us my family life is great and my kids are amazing i just cannot bear to let go of what is holding me back!