I am married with great kids, a beautiful home and a good paying job that pays well. It sucks that i was never able to make and hold onto any friends in my life. Yes my wife is my best friend and i am grateful for it but something is not right in my life. I feel so very lonely and i get depressed. Sometimes i cry at night for no reason and for these reasons stated. Good friends betrayed me when i was younger and now i cannot or will not allow myself to make or be friends with anyone. This has been going on for many years (i am 31 yrs old). I love the Lord, he has blessed me with things that i do not deserve. Sometimes i think about dying but i know i must continue on. Pleae don’t take your friends or loved ones for granted. Set aside your petty differences.