i feel depressed and a little suicidal at times. I’ve started smoking pot, thinking it will help me relax and all it does is even make me more depressed, feeling that no one actually cares for me or likes me. I’ve just been really sad these last couple of weeks and so on. I feel like no ones really real with me and they all turn their backs on me. I’m not good physically with myself either. I always think that im stinking or im being really paranoid about it, and that really brings me down too. I dont know i’m so sick of everything and everything that i go through you know. My family can`t even accept me because i’m a lesbian. I always feel like i’m not good enough no matter what i do. I’m on the edge of breaking down everyday. I just dont know what to do anymore with my life. Things have gotten soo bad for me