I am a 46yr old woman that has children in Primary school, a daughter who just had a baby and a step-daughter. My partner is a good man but we have little to keep us connected apart from the usual daily grind. My parents have suddenly aged, the sort of people that all their lives have been fit and healthy and then boom 70 comes and it all falls apart!! Mum in and out of hospital now and Dad has dementia and is in a nursing home this year too!!!!!!!!!!!! It is all a bit “bloody hell” what next! It is comical when you write about life because none of it makes sense. Anyway, I guess life just feels dull and it would be great to have a secret fun life to run to every now and again where the only responsibility you had was to be treated like a queen and to have a whole lot of fun!