Sometimes I think to myself why am I even here, you know? Through my whole entire life I’ve been bullied. I think to myself, is it because I’m ugly? Am I not popular like the stupid ignorant people? Do I have to become one of them? Yea I know that I shouldn’t be a follower, but yet I did. I tried to be pretty and deep down I really don’t think I am because of all the bullies and because I was abused. I hate the fact that I can’t be confident like my sister who took all the hits from our mother. I’m so like ugh I don’t know sometimes I think to myself why am I even here. I’m insecure about a lot of stuff, I try to look pretty but deep down I’m not. Like my boyfriends mom tells me I have to stop putting my self down
I just don’t think I’m pretty or like you know…worth being out here like…I don’t know how to explain it but I’m not depressed or anything
I just don’t like myself
I’ve wondered how it would be if I did cut myself but I know that stuff is really dumb and it won’t help at all. I think too much..