I feel like I’m losing people really close to me, and no one understands.
But I’ve felt this way for years, and handle by saying nothing and pushing away.
I don’t want to get hurt again, and I thought that maybe in you I had finally found someone I can trust. I was wrong, many times. But I kept holding on to you, hoping you would change and I could stop feelings this way and then we would go back to being best friends again and you would actually want to spend time with me and want to hang out with me and want to have me in your life and I just want to scream and scream and scream.
Sigh. Life is just one big s*** hole sometimes. Rant = over.