I knew I was going to get sucked in again.
But I don't even know him really, and it's like he's got this grasped on my every move, decision and choice, even now he's not looking, I still act this way, and have no clue why, I feel trapped but at the same time, free, I feel heart broken and full of love, and this is where I get confused, because he looks at me differently, my friends say he looks at me when I'm not looking and smiles, and I just want to talk to him, get to know him, we've nearly said two words to each other, yet I feel a strong connection, I don't know if it physical attractiveness, because he is really handsome and very masculine, very tall and his laugh is adorable, but at the same time, he's innocent, fragile and shy, how can someone project these two images that usually take place in two different people.
I know it sounds way off, but my friends say he looks at me in a way that says something different, and that when we walk by each other that he stares, and I never believe them, but oh god do I want to, the day that he felt that same way, is a day that might never come to pass.
Despite all these things I still feel lost, and I don't know how to start up a conversation or even just casual talk, please give me advice and help me…