This is the hardest year of my life so far. I feel so lost and disappointed in myself. I thought i was better than this. At least i learned so many things and what flaws i should work to repair. But i lost him. I lost my love. Probably forever. And i miss him so much. I lost my dog, cats, his beautiful family and so manu friends. I lost my dignity and self-esteem. I lost myself.
I hurt the only one who always protected me because i was angry.
My love, i miss you terribly! Where did it all went wrong? Why did i treat you so wrong? I hope you are not lonely and sad like me. You understand things better than me. I just love you. I am sorry. Don't know how could i do this to you. I will always love you and pray for you. Don't you ever let someone break your good heart like me. Know that my own broke, too when i saw how much i hurt you. I i just want this agony of mine to end.