Its been over a year since you left, 2 months since we hooked up, and 6 months since we had an honest conversation. You were my best friend, had my heart. Now when you hit me up its to ask whats up but cunningly work the question of sex into the conversation. I was at my lowest point yesterday and needed someone to help or listen to me. You hit me up, started a convo and asked for sex. You knew I was off and asked if I was okay. I told you no and you didnt bother to ask further questions. You said goodnight and left. I got angry with you and you asked me whats the matter with you, made me feel like s*** for being upset because the guy who was my first love, who cried when I had a slight cold, couldnt even stick around to ask whats wrong. Theres not a day that goes by where I feel Im not worth the effort or love or company. You broke me S and you will never know. Despite everything, you will always hold a special place in my heart, I could never hate you. Love you always, T.