If He Only Knew…

If he only knew, if he only knew the truth, if he only knew what pain I have felt, if he only knew how many times I questioned myself, if he only knew how many hours he's in my mind, if he only knew that my heart races whenever he talks to me, if he only knew what could happen, if he only knew the hope I have in him, if he only knew the times he's led me on, if he only knew the embarrassing moments where I wish he didn't see them, if he only knew what he meant to me, if he only knew…