Different.

I don't really understand how I came to loving this person. The second I first laid eyes on them was the exact moment I fell in love with someone. I had 3 past boyfriends/girlfriend. They were small crushes. What I feel towards this is person is different. I don't understand how love works. I'm too young for this crap and I was supposed to focus on school and worrying about myself. Turns out life had something different planned for me. This person makes me feel weird and I was only their friend at one point. Somehow I turned out to be her girlfriend. I've dated her for 2 years. Those 2 years were just…heartbreaking for me. We both spent those years hurting and loving each other. I hated the hurting part. I always promised myself to break up with her and to get over her. But I feel like she's already done the worst she could possibly do and I'm still in love with her. I can't seem to get over her…it's like it's impossible. I don't get it. She's just: different.