I've been single for so many years because I can't seem to bring myself to go thru another heartache. Being 40 and alone is starting to depress me though. I don't have many good or single friends and my kids are getting older and wanting to hang out with their friends more. I don't want to be alone, but internet dating is such a horrible thing anymore. Full of weirdos who don't work and have no ambition or people just looking to add another notch to their belt.
I've always been decent looking, or so I've been told, but I've let that go too. I stopped caring for so long and now it's all catching up to me. I can't tell you the last time I've been asked out or even looked at and I've gained about 15 lbs. so that doesn't help this whole mess.
F***.
Well, if nothing else, at at least feels good to get this out.
Maybe if I quit bottling all of this up, I'll finally start to do something about it again…