Its been 9 months. I counted. I counted because I wondered how long has it been already since it. I counted because I wanted to know how long its been Ive been without you and wondered if it will ever get easier for me. Days and months might of past but my heart feels empty like it was just yesterday when you were still here. I thought I was going to be ok eventually. But Im not. The longer I am without you the emptier my heart feels. I have to go on with my everyday life as if Im ok because thats my only choice as the world doesnt stop or wait for me to recover. But my insides has lost all abilities to be happy again. Is this going to be worst as time goes? How much longer must I hurt for?