i never imagine my life without him until now. i never thought i could be able to get through life without him.but when you're tired of playing second to soemone you fell in love with who was never your boyfriend you start to think more. missing chances to love and have someone to love you for someone who wants to love you but rather have his cake and eat it too . i never doubted his love but why do i have to be put on a back burner so you can explore your options more and you wanting me to wait for you until you're finish. the more i dwell on what ive been dealing with for 7 years the more i realize i can be without him. i can find someone who will love me like i want and need to be love. but in do time i gonna focus on me and loving myself before i start trying to love someone else.