i should have not messaged him. why cant i grasp that he literally does not care about me. mistake after mistake. it has been 6 months. i should have let that become eternity.
what if what i just did pulls me deeper?
the conversation is currently ongoing and I feel like this is legitimately going to f*** me up even more. i just barely made progress ffs.
all i messaged him for was to ask a question. fml