Why do I still think of you. I don't want to. I resist your advances easy enough. The temptation wouldn't be worth losing what I have. But…I still want you. I still look at you and see all the might have beens. All the things that could have happened if things had turned out differently. The thought of the unknown maybe's could be's, what if's…they drive me insane. I know I wouldn't change my life because I love what I have. I love my children and who I'm with…They give me life….but you take away my breath…you steal my soul away when we talk. A succubi of a human that makes me fight my instincts with a single glance your way. We've never been together. Not so much as a kiss has been shared between us and yet just being near you effects my senses. We can ignore each other for months. And it won't bother us….but the second we speak it's there again. This isn't love. I don't know what it is. I just wish u could get rid of it.