First of all, please excuse me if my English isn't that great hahha, I'm not a native but I'm trying ny best.
So, a few nights ago, this thing happened. I was out with some friends, and eventually my crush (with whom I've worked with for over 2 years & I'll continue to work with for like half a year in this really small food place) showed up with some of his friends. I had such a good time with him and our friends but then things got kind of crazy and I drunkenly made out with one of his best friends… He had been trying to get my attention as soon as they arrived, and when he eventually tried to kiss me after dancing and talking and fooling around for a long time I thought to myself "well, íf my crush liked me, his friend would defenitely know and he would never make a move like this" and I felt flattered and he was really nice to me – so it happened. No strings attached. In the moment it felt kind of good, but afterwards I heard from friends that my crush seemed a bit angry, but when I asked him later he denied. He told me I was like family to him, and he just didn't want anybody hurting me. But, some time later, when I left the party, one of his other friends came up to me and said "you did break his heart a little". I am so confused right now. I really thought my crush famzoned me and that he would never see me as anything different than family, but the way he acted that night makes me question his feelings a bit.. I'll be seeing him tomorrow at work again. I'm thinking about opening up to him at the end of the day, but I am so scared I totally misjudged the situation and I'm afraid I'll make things really awkward between me and him (if they aren't already…). Maybe he really wasn't angry and his friend was kidding, and I'll look like a fool admitting I have feelings for him just a few days after I made out with one of his best friends repeatedly… I don't know if there ever was the slightest chance of us getting togheter, but if there was, I'm afraid I've thrown it all away.
What. To. Do.
Should I tell him? Or should I just give up hope of us getting togheter one day?
P. S. He's 24 and I'm 18, which makes the situation a little bit more complicated…