it has been racing a lot for the last two months. Literally, I think about him almost every morning. It causes me tears. How do I let go? I am having so much trouble. its funny how we long for people we obviously are not compatible with and can never have. This guy was shaped by culture in a specific way that is far different from me. Differences brings us together, but I acquire specific traits that do not move him in a way where he can like me. He did like me, but that was only for a brief period.
I want to believe that God brought him to me. I needed change. Like overall. He is the first person I ever opened up to. He just left with a decent chunk of me. In the beginning, this bothered me, but maybe it was as compensation for that trigger of change in my life.