Regardless of how I feel in the end, it won't change you at all. I don't strive to be with a perfect person. I'm not perfect myself. All I want is to feel like I matter, that we matter. To see you go above and beyond like never before. And yet one year later I'm still waiting. What can I do? I feel like my mind is playing tricks on me, one day I want to be like f*** it. Let's try this out again. The next i damn near hate you, thinking about what you've done. When will I put the past behind me. Probably never, being that you will forever be in my life. When will I stop hurting?