I'm such a horrible wife… I did something tonight that hurt you. I had no intention to. I didn't mean to… But I did. I didn't cheat but what I did really hurt you. Im so stupid. You do so much for me and I did something that was horrible to you. You must hate me.. You tell me you can't trust me and I understand. I deserve it. Everyone tells me I'm so good for you… But I'm not. I said sorry but I know it isn't good enough. Why would it be? How could I be so stupid in thinking it would be good enough. I don't deserve you… I'm worthless. I wish you never met me because I bet your life would be so much better. I don't know how we can move past this.. You tell me its ok but I know its not. You tell me you wont leave me.. But I feel like deep down you want to. I feel like I make you miserable…. Like I'm not good for you… It doesn't matter what my intentions were it was wrong… How can I be a good wife if I hurt you like this… I'm so sorry… I'm so deeply sorry and I know saying it won't fix anything. Not even writing this will fix it..