I was diagnosed with depression last year i stopped taking my tablets it started to get worse i went back today and im back on the meds;/ I dont want peoples attention i dont want sympothy i just want to get my feeling out somewhere and not let anyone i know, know how i really am feeling. Im scared, im terrified, constantly worried, i dont want to be here anymore. I have a great family and they are lovely to me and thats what gets me down my whole life ive wanted to die and i find it selfish to my family but i just dont think i belong in this messed up world anymore i dont want to be me i dont want to do this i just want to die okay :'( nothing i do will ever ever ever be good enough for anyone.
i give up on myself.