I sometimes wonder dose she evan understand what she is doing? Dose she evan know because of her i have to hold back my tears, an force myself to smile. Just to try an pretend that yeah i love my mom she is so nice and caring. Its nothing evan close to that as soon as i get home i get yelled Where were you? What were you doing? Your lying! You never tell me the truth, you add so much stress to me. you make it where i don’t evan want to be around you. Why did i have to have? All you do is f*** up my life. This is what i constantly here everyday, its hurting me so bad, that i basically given up on life.