I hate my life. I know I have no right to say that, that my life could be worse. I know I have it good, but I’m tired of it. I’m tired of acting like it doesn’t matter and that I don’t care.
I’m tired of school.
Of having no one to sit or talk to at lunch, so I go to the library and just sit there.
Of acting like I give a f*** about what other people say.
Of being afraid what other people think about me.
Of having no one who knows the real me.
I’m tired of family.
I’ve tried to talk to them, but they played it off like it was nothing.
I’m afraid to talk to them because they can be quick to judge.
I’m tired of acting like their my friends, but they’re not.
It’s all to confusing! I know what I want to do when I grow up, I’m already on that path! But I don’t want to deal with all these things! I know that I’m probably overacting, but why?! Why am I so tired of my life!? I’ve thought about suicide, but I don’t have the courage to go through with it. I want one day, ONE, where I don’t have to worry about what I’m doing or saying! I want someone who can see through me, look me in the eye and say “I know your lying” when I give that fake smile! I’m just so freaking tired of it all and I can’t STAND IT!