Tonight I might cut for the second time, there’s no scars from my first time..I’m going to be 12 on the 24th…Last time I cut I actually posted here.
I’m not sad…or mad…I just feel something deep down inside of me aching to get out. I just feel like it’s the boy i’m..in LOVE with. Now, understand that I’m Pre-matured, I look around 14, and I act around 14, too. I CAN be in love.
Being Molested twice really takes an impact.
I don’t know what to do. I really want some one to talk too. Nobody to convince me ‘I’m worth it,’ ‘I’m beautiful’ or anything…because how would you know? You don’t know me. I just need someone not to assume or judge…but to actually understand…why is that so hard for people?
I kind of want to go back to counselling like I did after my dad went to jail for molesting me…but i don’t want all the people in my school to think I’m a freak.
I don’t really have problems at school, BTW, I just have personal problems.
Please someone, talk to me . 🙁