I am learning a new lesson today. I have to learn to keep my place in everything and with everyone I come into contact with. This includes my relatives. I cannot believe I let myself be so vulnerable in front of THEM. I cannot believe I let myself tear up in front of them. I hope that at least gave them what they were looking for. I can’t help but to feel humiliated that I had to go through that. This is the LAST time I RUN my MOUTH. THIS IS THE LAST GODDAMN TIME I RUN MY FILTHY MOUTH.