Over the past couple of days, I’ve been thinking about how miserable I’ve thought my life has been, and I have finally found the answer! I’m unconfident with myself. Every time I step out in a public place and I see a guy looking at my sister (who is only ten months older than me)I automatically start comparing myself to her. But this isn’t just with her, it’s with everyone. I hate the way I look and I am so uncomfortable with my body. If you would look at me, you would probably think the opposite but…I’m just so uncomfortable with myself. I can’t stand it! I wish I could be more comfortable and feel good about myself, but I don’t. I’ve been dealing with this issue for a while now and I haven’t told a soul, until now.
My mom and sister are always telling me how I need to stop being so grumpy and negative all the time, but how can I when I don’t like myself! I mostly get mad at my sister and my mom gets mad at me for it all the time, but its not because I don’t like my sister. It’s because I’m jealous of her. She’s gorgeous, funny, popular, outgoing… everything I’m not! I just want to like being me, because when I don’t like being me, I don’t like my life…
-A