i miss you so much. and i think you miss me too. like today, when we spoke and you said you were going to go to sleep and i told you i didnt want you to go and so you stayed and we talked for hours. and i know it was just a phone call but you fell asleep and i listened to the phone for a while afterwards, i could hear you breathing but i didnt hang up because . . . i dont really know why. but i feel alone here and i wish i had someone from home wh understood, and i guess you do the most becuase of how much i tell you, but you dont know everything. i still hide things from you, like how i cry myself to sleep sometimes, or how if i could i would go back four months and change everything i said you. or how sometimes when i’m in school i dont listen to the teachers i just remember what it was like at home when i was with you.