Im so disappointed with my life right now. my grades suck.i mean they arent bad at all but i had high expectations from myself and now im disappointed. i dont know what to with my life. i dont know what im gonna do next year after finishing school. i havent decided anything yet. i want to plan out everything but i cant. plus there are so many things i could do but i dont know what. im actually not interested in anything. i cant understand how people can be so passionate about something like sports or arts or anything. why can i never be passionate about something. i feel strange, weird, not belonging here. sometimes i feel like i dont want to live anymore.Life Doesnt make any sense to me.