to who i write this i do not know, mostly because im not sure what to believe within my own spirituality. but i pose a question. why did all the selfish people get what they wanted. why did i not get such small mundane thing i have asked for. i have asked of you only two things. for true love, and the stability to hold togather our love and the stability to be able to take care of him that kinda stability. but now i guess the endc is upon me. am i not suppose to be awaken and am i not suppose to figure it all out now. i dont think any differntly on the subject.