Why can’t I be beautiful like her? She is so pretty I hate myself. This is not me. I feel stupid for feeling self concsious about me myself. But I can’t help it but thinking I’m the ugliest duck on earth. I just want to be pretty so that he will like me, and not ashamed of me. I just want to feel beautiful for once. I just want to make the guys turn their head when they see me walking. I just want a guy would pull me in, look me in the eyes and call me beautiful.. I thought I was going to have one.. But I’m just someone to him. Someone he’s hooking up with. Why, why do I know he’s only hurting me but I still like him a lot. Is it love? I dont know. But I just want to be with him. I just want to feel beautiful so I can be with him. I’m ugly and I’m not good enough for anyone, he’s ashamed of me.. I know.