I’m lonely. I feel as if there’s no way else to put it. I believe in God, I am surrounded by a huge, caring family, I’ve got tons of friends…. But still I’m lonely.
It’s more of a guy lonely really. I miss my future husband to the limits of human possibility. I’m not quite sure when the loneliness of missing him started, but I’m pretty sure I was 12 or 13. Then I finally got a boyfriend 4 months ago. He got all of my love, and got to explore every part of me. Then after only two months he dumped me and is onto a new girl. A typical story. A story one would predict happening to a senior girl in high school who had never even been kissed by a hot, experienced guy.
I won’t lie, it was, and is at times, painful. However I know that he wasn’t the one for me and that there’s a much more fantastic man out there in the future. The problem is, until I meet him, I’m stuck in this state of loneliness. Not always, but most of the time. So please future husband, however repetitive this story seems in our society, come quickly. I’m sorry for giving that ex my virginity, but he was wearing a mask and I thought it was you.
I’ve loved you my whole life and always will,
Susie