I destroy myself to come back together. I question it all and wonder if it's worth it. Maybe I should follow the path everyone speaks of, everything would be so much easier. Would I feel as insane if I were to do that? Would I go more insane due to the monotony of such a life. I'm constantly teetering between the worst and best of me. I struggle to find the middle ground of it all. I go one way then the next living between extremes. Try to throw out feelings but they keep coming back. To hold back emotion just drives me crazier but would I go crazier to accept these emotions. I worry what it will mean to accept, I want to be honest but what will happen?