You keep telling everyone you are fine, but the truth is you are anything but fine. You spend every day pretending you are happy so that the people around you won't be bothered by your pain. You keep all the horrible feelings to yourself and push them down so that they never really surface and you never have to deal with them. No one understands how mentally draining this process is. I just want to be happy, I just want to be happy. I'm tired of being sad and hurt and feeling horrible all the time when the people around me go on with their lives and don't notice me.