Some nights the thoughts that come across the mind are so dark and troublesome that they bleed into the morning of the next day. With the future unknown for me and the pain of not feeling like i am enough being something that haunts me the night just drags along. There is a pain that hurts so much of failed goals and not being enough that it just keeps piling up on top of my mind. The breath slowly leaving my airways it is hard not to just become buried under all of the expectations and the thoughts that I will be enough in this world. The harder that I work and the more and more that I put myself forward the more that it seems like im not going to be able to catch up with the little plastic spoon that I seem to have.