I wanted to write, really wanted to say something interesting but I got nothing. I'm down and out, confused. Every time I try I fail. I'm told I'm not doing enough, I'm not trying hard. I am. I'm trying. It's not good enough. Others complain and yell at me. I feel like giving up but then I feel overly weak and I disgust myself. I know of a way to fix one problem but that would leave me not knowing what would come to be.