I used to blame myself for what happened, believed I deserved it. Now I realize no one should ever deserve it. To treat someone as an object is cruel particularly if you say that someone is someone you care for. To cause that someone to believe such things is even crueler. I would never look back to that time as I didn’t want to relive it, the few times I did I made myself believe it was all for the best. But it wasn’t I, know that now. And it will never happen again. I won’t say thank you because it made me stronger or wiser no, I didn’t want to become more twisted and empty, confused and alone. And no one should.