Oh s***. I really have noone to talk to. I have friends I guess…but I can’t talk to them about this. I’m so closed in and I can’t get the f*** out of what I caused. I’m the one that ended it, you’d think I’d be okay. But I’m not. I’m f***ing heartbroken, I’ve never felt so bad. I need out of here, I need someone to help me. He was the only guy who didn’t screw me over and I love him. But it just wasn’t right, it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. I can’t stop crying. Lets hope I did the right thing.