Hi guys I'm back, I still haven't told anyone I feel. It may be hurting me but I don't know what to do about it I have no one to talk to about this especially in this lockdown. Not even my girlfriend knows how I feel no one does so no one knows the real me. I have all my feelings down on a website I screen shotted it. So if I 'accidentally' sent it while sending my work it wouldn't be so bad. Also I don't know how to delete emails so I couldn't go back if I wanted to. It would help so much but I just can't I don't feel comfortable talking about it if I do talk about it I will be sick. So even if I did send it I still wouldn't talk about it I would just say I'll tell you in the next email until they give up. I couldn't ever do it I will just stay with my bottles of emotions for a while until I'm ready. Have a good rest of the weekend and have a good week I love you loads.💙ðŸ¤